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Saturday, June 18th, 2005
4:17 am
ANYBODY!!!!
ANYBODY WANT A DEAD JOURNAL...
ITS FREE FOR THE GRABBINGS....
JUST WANT TO GIVE THE SHOUT OUT!!!!!

Current Mood: cheerful
Tuesday, June 14th, 2005
12:33 pm
im feeling really positive
i feel a lot of weight off my back....
this is a great feeling....
im kinda really excited about what is next, in a weird way....
stuff is coming together in more ways then one....
i went to Orchard today with my dad.....
passed on a cd to a friend there....
and am getting ready for work...
10:18 am
oh life, you are a joker sometimes....
im feeling really satisfied right now....
i don't know why....
i guess its the feeling of kinda knowing where im going....
i feel stable with having something that i know is also stable & helpful to my goals....
i've been thrown into leftfield and its kinda weird....
theres a lot on my mind.....and its pretty heavy...
i've been taking naps b/c i can't get a full sleep and that kinda sucks.....
soo the TV is now my new best friend, it talks to me at night and me feel ok....
no exchanging the t.v. b/c it always needs power....(now that was funny, jokes are good right?)
im excited about going to the tattoo convention and about seeing Peaches.....this is Super Macho.....
i will have more time this summer to do what i want and i like that....
im looking into flying out to see Emily b/c that option was kinda dragging.....
but yeah, "im ok, your ok"

i went to Tower yesterday with Katie and Christi to buy a porn.....
Dani gave me wenis lovings and she promised more back massage and hugs....
i showed Katie what a wenis loving is and she was kinda weirded out by it....
it tickled her....she couldn't handle it, it was funny....
i bought Pretty in Pink.....i've been super craving that movie....
i also bought Team America (UNRATED of course)

i talked to my mom today....which was really good....we had an awesome converstation...
it made me more settled.....its nice to have that emotional understanding from a parent or friend....
she was really helpful and gave me some good advice....i still have to talk to my dad....
i think if anything, he is the best to talk to and he always knows exactly what it is like.......
he soo good at that.....mr. counselor man...
well im back to taking a nap before work hopefully i can get a full 5 hours in.....
another day in the life of me........

Current Mood: hopeful
Saturday, June 11th, 2005
1:34 pm
i've been feeling extremely self-conscious and self-loathing lately....
things have been gettting to me way worse than they should be....
i have too much going on period....and too much going on in my head....
i feel extremely frustrated...
i just want to freak out really bad...but im trying really hard to remain calm...
im having extreme issues with school and my classes....and its really eating me up mentally...
i feel like screaming at my teacher b/c he won't listen to me and its going to affect my grade if he doesn't...
i've been trying soo hard to just be all, no i won't drop my classes b/c i need to do this....too much is going on and its not helping, my weekend time.....i really want to fucking drive hella far away and just scream at a blank landscape...
i feel like im mentally falling apart inside and i don't know what to do....
it feels like everything is way to much for me to handle....
i really want to just drop everything and run.....
i feel really alone....
it sucks when one person is feeling really positive and the other isn't.... (and don't read into this, b/c there is no hidden meaning)
just b/c you don't want the other to feel your frustration and anger towards everything...
i've been trying to keep composure and i've been doing a good job but im at the point where i feel fucking nuts........
i really need a mental break down....it sounds soo good....almost like it will releave all of my stress...
i've been wanting to hella drink and get stupid wasted and do a bunch of drugs....
its been constantly on my mind....but im trying not to do any of this b/c it doesn't help with my schedule....
my schedule allows no time for anything....i've just been trying to tell myself that this is only for a month and then its fucking over......

Current Mood: super
9:05 am
im kinda excited about tonight
i get to see a few people i haven't seen or hung out with in awhile....
im excited about seeing Shannon, her man, and Charity...
they are fun ladys and boy....
im excited to actually hangout with Corina...
i haven't hung out with her in forever and i remember hangout with her before...
and the times that we did have hanging out were pretty fun...
it is a plus that she is very social too......
it still kinda weirds me out when now that i know Lorena and work with her and we can talk about how we dated THE SISTERS.....
i don't know why.....i guess it was different when i didn't know her but know that i do, it kinda felt like we were dating twins...
hard to explain unless you know them..........
i hope a lot of people show but it would also be nice to have a small pleasure....
BUY TOYS BITCHES!!!!!!!

ps. i don't want to go to work

Current Mood: awake
8:52 am
Five things you enjoy, not because you have to but because you WANT to, even when no one around you wants to go out and play. What lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level? Make a list, post it to your journal, and then tag five friends and ask them to post it to theirs.

1.) meeting new people...although, it seems like i have no time for this and i've been holding myself back on doing this for awhile and i don't like that feeling...

2.) listening to music and over analyzing it.......

3.) having time for myself....this is something i also really miss.....school has fucked this up for me...

4.) watching movies in bed, even if i fall asleep to them....

5.) going out, yeah, i wish to do this more, but i don't always have people to go out with on the times that i can go and hangout so i just stay home :(

now its your turn:

mythicalbeauty
star__belly
captainchode
supresmooth
deathintears

Current Mood: apathetic
Friday, June 10th, 2005
5:35 pm
we are having triple date night :)
we are having triple date night tonight.....
food, movies, holding hands, coffee (tea for me), and maybe kissing will be involved...
ohhh and candles, for the sexy candle light dinner...
watch out, your butt is going to get did, Tinys :)

Current Mood: amused
Wednesday, June 8th, 2005
9:41 pm
MY BRAIN IS FRIED!!!!
I DON'T LIKE MATH SAM I AM,
I DO NOT LIKE MATH ON MY LAP,
I DO NOT LIKE MATH IN A RAP,
I DO NOT LIKE MATH ON MY DESK,
I DO NOT LIKE MATH IN A TEST,
I DO NOT LIKE MATH SAM I AM,
I DO NOT LIKE MATH IN A STAL,
I DO NOT LIKE MATH, NOT EVEN A LITTLE BIT AT ALL!!!!

FUCK THIS, I NEED A FULL TIME TUTOR.....
I DON'T KNOW HOW THE FUCK I AM GOING TO BE ABLE TO PASS THIS SHIT ON A TEST OR A QUIZ....
THIS SHIT IS RIDICULOUS AND MY TEACHER HAS A THICK ACCENT AND I CAN'T UNDERSTAND WHAT HE IS SAYING AND HE IS EXTREMELY HARD TO APPROCH AND DOES NOT UNDERSTAND MY SITUATION IN THE SLIGHTEST....
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(THIS IS ME PULLING OUT MY HAIR, OR WHAT IS LEFT OF IT)
I CAN'T JUST DROP THIS SUMMER CLASS....BUT I AM TERRIFIED OF FAILING IT....
I HAD A TUTOR IN HIGH SCHOOL AND THE SAME PROBLEM OCCURRED...I NEEDED HIM FOREVER......
B/C IT TAKES ME A LONG TIME TO ACTUALLY GET THINGS THAT ARE WAY TO STRUCTURED AND ARTICULATE IN SPEECH....
I LOOSE ALL UNDERSTANDING EASILY.....I NEED TO PASS, I WANT TO BE OUT IN A YEAR AND A FUCKING HALF!!!
ITS NOT MY FUCKING MAJOR BITCH!!!!!!

Current Mood: SUPER
Monday, June 6th, 2005
8:54 pm
you ever get the feeling of being extremely left out....
yeah, im starting to excessively feel this way....
but its fine, this too shall pass and i too will have to find other things to do with my time, than wait....................................................
i hate this feeling....i think im going out.................................................
i need me some friends that i can actually go out with, more often.....
cause sometimes i feel like i hardly have any at all.....and the ones that i do have, all have childrens and stuff.......
im not liking summer school at all.........
its fucking with my sleep already and i don't like that.......
4:26 pm
my back hurts and im tired....
its time for nap time........

Current Mood: sleepy
Friday, June 3rd, 2005
11:36 am
tattoo
i am getting my tattoos today...
not one but two..
yay tattoos
Wednesday, June 1st, 2005
12:50 pm
it was meant to be, everything except the boyfriend who turned out to be gay....
Celebrity family and relationships by Nirvanagroupie7489
Name
Age
FatherBilly Idol
MotherCheri Oteri
SisterCourtney Love
BrotherAcey Slade
BoyfriendOrlando Bloom
Quiz created with MemeGen!
12:39 pm
whoo hoo!!!
i like me some lip-o-suction





What hot female celebrity will you meet? by _tsia_
Name
Age
Your Type?
You will end up with...Angelina Jolie
In a..Porno Cinema
She will give you a..Kiss
You will say...'That's cool.'
You will end up..Kissing passionately.
Quiz created with MemeGen!
11:55 am
HOW AWESOME IS THIS
What stupid celebrity are you destined to kill? by daydreamer8852
Name
Birthdate
You killed
With a
OnApril 20, 2022
Quiz created with MemeGen!
Monday, May 30th, 2005
11:29 am
saw PEACHES spin last night, didn't get home till 4 this morning
PEACHES is a major dork..
i fucking love her.....
she fucking spun Judas Preist PAINKILLER!!!!
how fucking rad is that.....
and she hella rocked out to it...
we could have gone in her dj booth and hungout with her but i think it was too much for Tinys to handle...

it is TINYS REAL FUCKING BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!
we are going to Johns Incredible Pizza to get Incredible!!!
with the familys....
(hers and mine)
then afterwards we are going to the GOSSIP AT HARLOWS IN SACRAMENTO TONIGHT.......
WHOO HOO!!!!

Current Mood: happy
Friday, May 27th, 2005
12:19 pm
ALRIGHT!!!!
PARTY AT OUR HOUSE!!!!
INVITE ONLY!!!
KELLYS BIRTHDAY PARTY!!!
IM THE FUCKING BOUNCER, AND I AM NOT DRINKING SOO WATCH THE FUCK OUT WITH STUPID BEHAVIOR THAT IS LOUD, OBNOXIOUS, RUDE, AND ANNOYING.....

on another note....i got straight B's in all of my class and one incomplete in English....im excited....this semester was way hard and my first time taking 4 classes all at once....im glad it is over...
i got sleep in time....i get me some money today...."cha-ching" *uses fist with a pumping movement that moves back and forth*
this weekend is gonna be super-dupa krazy fun....
i am cleaning today so the house looks all beautiful and stuffs....
"AIN'T NUTHIN BUT A GANGSTA PARRR-TY"

Current Mood: amused
Wednesday, May 25th, 2005
5:43 pm
I CAN'T FIND, HAVE YOU SEEN A BANANA CHASING A MONKEY?
I CAN'T FIND TINY MAN-CHO-CHOS ANYWHERE....
I DON'T KNOW WHERE SHE IS....
I'VE TRIED CALLING HER AND SHE DOESN'T PICK UP.....
I THINK THE BANANA ATE HER...
SHE HATED THE BANANA AND I THINK IT GOT BUTT HURT AND ATE HER B/C SHE DIDN'T LIKE IT ON HER HEAD....
I CAN'T GO OUTSIDE...ITS TOO HOT AND I THINK IM HALUCINATING...
SLEEP AND 8 HOUR TEST HAS TAKEN HOLD OF MY BRAIN.....
IF YOU FIND HER TELL HER I MISS HER....
IF SHE IS ALIVE...IF SHE ISN'T PLEASE SEND HER BODY BACK TO ME AND I WILL FIX IT WITH SANRIO TAPE
ONLY THE HELLOS CAN SAVE HER NOW....
THANK YOU
:)

Current Mood: crazy
8:28 am
YES BITCHES!!!
so for Kellys pre-birthday....
im taking her to see Peaches
shes spinning at Coup D'etat in SF....
its going on till 9-5am...
i don't know where im getting this sudden burst of energy but im hella going to bed early Saturday b/c Sun. i open
then off to SF....
it will be rawking...
it will almost be like shes turning 21 b/c at 12am it will be her b-day....
and since its a 21+ club she will be hella partying it up like she 21....
the tickets were pretty cheap for two people...only $34 bucks...

well im off to my Survey of American English Literature Final.....
only four questions that will probably take 6-8 hours trying to rack my brain on how to explain the meaning and understanding behind
Victorian English poetry....
then a i have to start my English paper that is due tomorrow...yay! me!!!!
havent even studied for my Film as English Final for tomorrow...im sure i will crap out on the multiple choice questions and maybe
get a rad score (hopefully) on the essay part...then sleep in friday....im soo looking forward to sleep....then Saturday after the party
i have work at 9 in the morning...no drinking for me....(which is fine, IM THE FUCKING BOUNCER!!! SO NO FUNNY, NEW FRIENDS!!!!)

Current Mood: tired
Monday, May 23rd, 2005
11:22 pm
thought this might interest some people or piss them off, since im doing a speech on it....
Currently, over $100 million federal dollars are spent each year on abstinence-only-until-marriage education. Below are some examples of what young people are being taught. All of the examples come from curricula that are in some way supported by federal funds.

"The first player spins the cylinder, points the gun to his/her head, and pulls the trigger. He/she has only one in six chances of being killed. But if one continues to perform this act, the chamber with the bullet will ultimately fall into position under the hammer, and the game ends as one of the players dies. Relying on condoms is like playing Russian roulette." Me, My World, My Future, revised HIV material, p. 258.

"Because they generally become aroused less easily, females are in a good position to help young men learn balance in relationships by keeping intimacy in perspective." Sex Respect, Student Workbook, p.6.

"Is it fair to make the baby die because of a bad decision his or her parents made?" Sex Respect, Student Workbook, p.25.

"THERE IS NO WAY TO HAVE PREMARITAL SEX WITHOUT HURTING SOMEONE." Sex Respect, Student Workbook, p.35

"At the least, the chances of getting pregnant with a condom are 1 out of 6." Me, My World, My Future, revised HIV material, p. 257. (When used consistently and correctly condoms are 98 percent effective in preventing pregnancy and up to 99 percent effective in preventing the transmission of HIV and other STDs.)

"A young man's natural desire for sex is already strong due to testosterone...females are becoming culturally conditioned to fantasize about sex as well." Sex Respect, Student Workbook, p. 6.

"A woman is stimulated more by touch and romantic words. She is far more attracted by a man's personality while a man is stimulated by sight. A man is usually less discriminating about those to whom he is physically attracted." WAIT Training, Workshop Manual, p. 40.

"Watch what you wear, if you don't aim to please, don't aim to tease." Sex Respect, Student Workbook, p. 82.

One of the best ways to avoid AIDS is to "avoid homosexual behavior." Sex Respect, Student Workbook, p. 25.

"The liberation movement has produced some aggressive girls today, and one of the tough challenges for guys who say no will be the questioning of their manliness" Sex Respect, Student Workbook, p. 85.

"There is no such thing as 'safe' or 'safer' premarital sex." FACTS, Middle School, Teacher's Guide, p. 9.

"How can girls make guys feel esteemed and admired for choosing the wise course?" Facing Reality, Student Manual, p. 30.

"For condoms to be used properly, over 10 specific steps must be followed every time. This tends to minimize the romance and spontaneity of the sex act." Choosing the Best, Student Manual, p. 25."What if a girl came to school in a crop top, just barely covering her bra, and shorts starting three inches below her naval? What 'game' would she be playing?" WAIT Training, Workshop Manual, p. 86.



Thank you Bush for educating the children of America about the proper safe sex materials that are needed to push me to be sexless and abstinence driven....you have utterly scared the shit out of me with these workbooks and now i choose to masturbate for the rest of my life until i learn to become the well loved straight Christian-God loving individual that i will now strive for...there are much better things in life for me now that im not a homo, satanist, drugy, alcoholic, liberal loving, pierced, tattoo, freak......i can wait until marriage and have tons of babys with my husband who cheats on me and know that he will be a better man if i only forgive him and know that God will do the rest.....b/c Jesus is the only real man that i need in my life......i love you Jesus....WILL YOU MARRY ME?????

Current Mood: amused
Thursday, May 19th, 2005
2:16 pm
AEON FLUX IS FUCKING LIVE ACTION, WHY!!!!!!!
OOOOOOHHHHHHH THE HORROR!!!!
HOW COULD THEY???
HOW DARE THEY???
but of course, being the big fan that i am....i can't help but check it out....
it actually has bunch of really good actors in it....

Starring: Frances McDormand, Charlize Theron, Sophie Okonedo, Jonny Lee Miller, Marton Csokas

i really like Frances McDormand, Charlize Theron, and Jonny Lee Miller....
Jonny Lee Miller must be Trevor, he has the hair and look for it....at least that was a good choice...
and i could see Charlize Theron putting her all into being Aeon Flux...
it just sux b/c the hair will never be right.....and i really trust her as an actor b/c there hasn't been one movie that i've seen her in
where i wanted to barf and say, why did she do that too herself????
the one thing that i question is the directors.....there movies before this was "Girlfight" and "Crazy/Beautiful"
what the fuck is that???
don't get me wrong, those were ok movies, but how do you go from a teen drama to a hardcore Sci-fi movie....
where do they get this, "I'm an expert at Sci-fi flicks that actually have a quality story line b/c my last films were Girlfight and Crazy/Beautiful."
im lost in this concept.....
I WILL REVOLT, IF I AM HIGHLY DISAPPOINTED!!!!!!!
MTV WILL HEAR FROM ME, AND MANY OTHER OUTRAGED FANS!!!!!
ITS LIKE HALLY BARRY AND CATWOMAN.....
YOU JUST DON'T DOO THAT!!!
for one she does not fit the role b/c it is no where near the outfit....
2) her acting does not qualify for her role in that film......
its like telling Jeff Goldbloom to actually have some kind of personality and not be soo much of a scientific nut...
IT DOESN'T WORK!!!!
i am going to try and let it be ok for now....just like i did with Catwoman....i tried to let it be cool and give it some credit that it might actually be ok or good.........i wasn't as mad as some people....b/c Catwoman is a character that i like but not to where it super affects me.........................
but if i see it and it is terrible, i will freakout.....
that is one animation that i love dearly......
that is my rant....PLEASE BE GOOD, OR SEMI-DECENT..
*CROSSES FINGERS TIGHTLY*
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